Bittersweet Life...

Saturday, January 13, 2007

finally... i can update. but sadly, the whole looong post gone POOF!

well, basically, i missed my darling baby perform at SP.

and anyway, my previous posts were just for me to make myself feel better. sometimes, u know, i just feel being dragged down real bad. like hit pit bottom zero. it feel real bad. but aft putting down those dreaded feelings, i feel a lil better. though, now i still a lil bit like as if i lost everything i had, i guess i just have to carry on. i have to practice wat i preach to a dear fren of mine. told her no matter wat, no matter how hard, we just gotta pick ourselves up and move on.

it's pretty heavy picking ourselves up sometimes. it's very hard to do so. tt's y frens are there. i appreciate those of u who really took care of me, who consoled me after i bawled myself at times, who are just willing to be a listening ear and endlessly encouraging me to not give up.

i have to admit im doing well. but at times, u know, there's this feeling tt just hit me all of the sudden... and once again, i feel as if i've been dragged along a road. it's no fun. having these mood swings is no fun... it's painful. see, here i go again. i keep telling myself stop giving in to tt eff-ed up feeling, and so did others. i didnt give in. but sometimes, it's just too bloody strong. haiz.

sighh.

but, i am getting better. taking it slowly, but eventually. =)

i know my frens will be there. but i dun wanna throw myself onto them. it's such a burden, i feel, coz they have their own life too. i cant go running to them everytime i feel shitty. it's unfair.

im a strong girl. im a girl with a high self esteem. im a girl tt doesnt give a shit abt lil things. a girl tt's brave to do her thing. she's brave, isnt she? or was she?

so, darlings, not to worry. thank u very much for the tags and caring words. knowing tt there's still someone who is concern at the very least makes me feel better. thanks.

ok. im good, for now =)

had fun, fun, fun today.. hahaha.. socccer match at tampines. spmls vs. another team of mixed up ppl.. haha.. it was thrilling. i was screaming my ass off at the sidelines. i could shit rite there and then. it was re-match anyway coz the opponent werent happy tt they lost last week. today's score were a draw at 4 all. im glad tt the spmls guys didnt give up. im proud of u guys. *applause*

i love my frens. i miss them. i miss my life the way it used to be before all of us decided to grow up.

ta~

Smashed into pieces at 1/13/2007 06:20:00 PM